As Susan Sontag believes, "Photographs are a way of imprisoning reality... One can't possess reality; one can possess images—one can't possess the present but one can possess the past."
As a photographer, I watch, I eye, I observe; and I watch, I eye, and I observe. I see things the way they might have never been seen before. I see people as they have never been themselves. Besides watching, all I record is my feelings toward things, people, happenings and life. To me, beauty has a variety of meanings. How I feel something or someone or even how I look at happenings around me is all that matters. I don't record beautiful things. How I eye, feel and smell them is considered as beauty for me.
Besides, I design and create portfolios. I portray people, I take pictures of artists' works, I photograph paintings, sculptures, drawings, installations. And then, I make books out of people's works. This aspect of photography has got me to know a lot of people from all walks of life, each telling his stories behind the artworks he has created. The experience so enlightening, so meditative, so inspiring...
I: an immigrant; having moved to a city full of wonders.
I walk; I work; I eat; I work; I take pictures. I watch; I encounter cultures; I encounter life… All so vague that I cannot feel or even see clearly. So enjoyable, though.
The homeland is left in search of a new life; yet the dreamland has not been experienced fully.
The pictures are so blurred; exactly the way life in the dreamland (here) is to me. I, an immigrant: a wanderer in the city; trying to tell new stories, to make new myths, to experience the new things, to change the dreamland to a homeland. Could I? Can I? Will I ever?
This project began in August 2015, when I landed as a new comer in Toronto, and is going to continue as long as I live here. Some of these pictures may get sharper, clearer in time, and some may not. Some may get sharper in a few months, and some not for years. It depends on how I will feel about life here as an immigrant over the passage of time. Do these pictures come into focus soon or stay blurred for long?